Thanks Mike,
Your help would be greatly appreciated by your fellow brothers as well as
all NYers and I'm sure everyone elso too.
I don't know what more I can say, but thanks for your offer to help.
Mike
----- Original Message -----
From: <CalSpeed@aol.com>
To: <noji-1@pacbell.net>; <datsun-roadsters@autox.team.net>;
<Mary_Ling@cc.chiron.com>; <rguru@ebaratech.com>; <Iling@actuate.com>
Sent: Thursday, September 13, 2001 5:27 AM
Subject: Re: Thanks to those who serve
> In a message dated 9/12/01 5:59:31 PM !!!First Boot!!!, noji-1@pacbell.net
> writes:
>
> << Yesterday I was mostly awe struck & numb. Today I mostly feel sadness.
> As I hear about the fire fighters and police who died in service... >>
>
> I realize this is a Datsun Roadster List but I am going to step over the
line
> tonight.
>
> It is now 2am and I feel terrible. I feel angry and I feel lost and I
feel
> scared. But most of the time I feel numb. I feel as if I may become
> emotional and then it goes away. Sometimes I dont hear the person next to
me
> talking. I dont know how to talk about what happened. Not to even my
wife.
>
> The morning of the tragedy I was just finishing my 24hr shift. It was
early
> in the morning when the PA system alerted the firehouse that there was a
> terrorist attack in NYC and that we were to prepare for similar in SF. I
> watched in horror as the towers were attacked and then watched them as
they
> fell. I as well as all others on duty were told to stay in the firehouse
> until further notice.
>
> Much was spoken in the firehouse about the incident but nothing was said
> about our brothers and sisters of the NYFD and NYPD.
>
> I spent today at home. A quiet day with my daughter. She playing and I
> watching the news. Seeing my brothers and sisters battling day and night.
> Many with the familiar look of denial. I didnt need to hear what happened
to
> the firefighters and police officers. I knew from the moment the building
> collapsed. I, at that moment was with them. I too was climbing that
> stairwell in the dark. I too felt the trembling. And now I too feel that
I
> lost something as precious as life itself.
>
> So right now as I type this to all of you I am starting to feels less
numb.
> But I think I want to become numb again. But in five more hours I will be
> back in the firehouse for my next 24 hour shift. Business as usual.
>
> My name is on the roster of fightfighters to be sent to NY for mutual
aide.
> If we are activated I should be leaving within 24hrs. I feel a deep need
to
> be with my fellow firefighters.
>
> Michael "Calspeed" Carion
> SFFD Station 14
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